After four days of laying down paint, I knew that what I wanted to say with this piece couldn’t yet be achieved with the skills I had at my disposal. My vision for it needed my artistic vocabulary to catch up. You could see the earliest indications of the style that was emerging - drips that conceal and reveal layers beneath, paint spatters, areas of impenetrable opacity contrasted with thin glazes - but lacking the conviction and confidence that was needed to develop the canvases fully.